After i lost my mind

everyhing become weird...
mybe cuz of that sentences...
'pls change...'
i said mybe ok...
when i woke up at early morning...
everything turned opposite...
smthg that i like...
i hate it...
smthg that i hate...
i like it...
all my shirt n all that i weared be4...
i hate it...
im juz take my bro shirt n all...
n i wearing it as my own...
if can...
i want to change my face...
i hate to saw it every time i see a mirror...
why?
i also didnt know...
wt act hppn...
if i hate myself...
of cuz other people...
ll hate more...
u juz dead la...
why u still stay alive?